My year ends with sadness at my household. After Christmas my father became ill and bedridden and his condition has slowly declined to the point that he is eating very little and drinking very little each day. Hospice nurses visit him and I am just trying to keep him as comfortable as possible each day. Even with his dementia he says to me things such as, “I only have a short time to live”. I am in active grieving already because all I have known for the past four years is caregiving for him and I fear for the future because of the unknown.
Also at Christmas my brother was hospitalized for shortness of breath which turned out to be caused by blood clots in his lung. Luckily he went to the hospital and they treated it with a powerful drug and he will stay in there until the first of the new year. My brother needs to learn to care for himself because he has a weight problem and weighs over 450 lbs. I hope this is a wake up call for him and he realizes this is a second chance at life.
This has been the end of 2012 for me. I don’t know what 2013 has in store. I’m just taking it one day at a time, caring for my Dad until his is no more and then I have to figure out what to do with myself.
Wish you all a happy and safe new year.